cant believe its 21st november already

am so totally out of it man alive!! was really unwell on tuesday and wednesday aches and pains and stomach upset. i couldnt even run for the bus on friday and on thursday i just wanted to crawl into bed. weird....wonder what it was.
am bit better today the aches and pains are less though stomach and bowel movement still leave a lot to be desired. woke up with watery eyes and look like death warmed up.last thing i wanna do is go to the hairdressers and sit there and hear him go on and on :-(((((
found three white hairs on my eyebrows ffs
what a stressful week with him home every sgl fukn day. he had a night flight tel aviv - a night flight ffs but at least i slept better. i woke up much less tense and in a good mood. what a difference!!
on the agenda is new mattresses cos am sure twil make a differnce though dont know how much.
got quite a week coming up:
sunday: theatre with mum, opera groan
monday: postural cos have to collect simes' orthopeadic referral
tuesday: hope to take morning off and clean thoroughly house in the afternoon meeting at russell school and pass by gym to see postural teacher for simes
wednesday: summat is happening but cfthe life of me remember
thursday: likewise
friday: catia really hope i make it to meet her and orthopeadic visit and spanish kid arrives.
i'm not happy
i'm not living
i'm not positive
i'm not in love
i'm devoid of passion
i'm devoid of lust for life
i'm fed up totally and utterly
............and christmas is around the corner!
my little baby was 13 on thursday.....13 years old. i have two teenagers now hahahhahahha gosh wat an achievement. am ever so proud and i love her to bits. last night we lay on her bed and watched tv on her new plasma tv. we lol and mucked around and it was sublime.
simes doesnt talk anymore and i wish i knew things about him. i dont pry and i dont hassle him but i miss him hahahahahaha
money is dire it comes in and goes out in the blink of an eye. so many expenses and nothing left over to save for christmas ( bit late now! ) and for holidays and school trips next year.
ho hum ho hum ho hum
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