situation today

is this: i have indigestion ate a pizza with peppers last night ( yeah yeah i know i deserve indigestion ) with mum as i waited for sonia to finish at a party.
my hair is greasy and there is a whole loada hassle with this amine guy coming. simes is acting strange as though he couldnt give a dam and even worse as though he has every intention of making this guy's stay a memorable one but in a negative sense!! i could get v v agitated about the whole thing but will try not to. i simply dont know what's best to just interfere or let 'em get on with it :-(((
pos due back at 9am and i am going to meet sis at israelitico cos she has a mammogram. i hope to have breakfast with her and a drag hahahahaha while watching the tiber from the bridge.
mari just rang me saying that she has to pick up another two french kids from the airport so would i go and pick amine up at the school...fine by me hahahah gives me more chance to clean house maybe have a snooze etc etc etc
mum so sweet gave me money for going to pay her bills....honest she doesnt realise how every little bit helps am so so grateful xxxxx

well well well

what a laugh....well stephen made his way to the office and it was soooo funny having him sitting opposite me then he handed me over a bag of stuff bless how totally generous and sweet. i was quite impressed i must say.

i was in my element laughing and so enjoyed talkn in english!!!

super duper

shit shit

he said he would make his way to the office agh agh agh i just took a photo of me and i look awful am so nervous am almost shaking how totally embarrassing!! got my window open can hear cars pass by people talking etc etc am shitting myself.......
maybe i should get ready and close the office and go out...........oh why the fuk did i go and do this.......
cant fuking believe at 42 and a half i get into such a bloomin' mess
am writing cos i cant concentrate on anything else....he wrote at 11.15 should be in the area by now AND ALL FOR THE LOVE OF A VASELINE TUB how totally totally embarrassing .....ground open up and swallow me whole :-(((((((( and i dont even know him let alone recognise him.....he must think so highly of roj to do all this for a stranger...........

Dad's birthday

how apt that wales are playing italy today and it's Dad's birthday.....am in bit of a tizz cos supposed to be briefly meeting up with stephen bayliss and martin macabe so they hand me over a tub of vaseline and some cream eggs. how fukin embarrassing. what ever possessed ( ! ) me to ask for that stuff in the first place??? it started off as a whim writing to roj and then things sort of rollercoasted shit shit shit. i feel as nervous as if i was getting ready to go to a porthcawl disco, or into town with a boyfriend for the first time.
fuk fuk fuk
have silv's mega jeans with the purple beads on and a white vest under a v-neck mustard jumper. hair ok though am not at all confident :-((((
now am simply waiting for one of the boys ( groan i cant go thru with this ) to contact me after breakfast so i can meet up and collect the ..... vaseline. what a show up what a total total show up!!

am still not over the burglary from last monday - am terrified that we have been targeted and sooner or later they will try when me or one of the kids are at home alone. must talk to pos about it cos i dont feel safe in there anymore.

just heard simes who was having breakfast alone nella cantina - dont ask me what that means haahhahahahaha he was quite sweet and happy but looking forward to coming home. i think he likes strasbourg. i've missed him lots but its a synch looking after just one i can tell u. there were even a couple of times when i could say i was almost bored!!!!!