what a week

how things change in a week.....tis friday and am as down as you can get...honest all going wrong ( not serious wrong just iffy wrong).

sony....she found out i went into her room. i was so careful i just did the real basics but her reaction was way out of context. i mean ffs...maybe she really has something to hide...what is it with her and this privacy thing. she wrote the most hateful texts and a hate letter and was so nasty, hurt, upset. i dont deserve this but i dont know wht to do. i am not in the wrong but feel i have let her down. what the fuck is one supposed to do. she didnt speak this morning but just before getting into school she said 'ciao ma' which is enough. i trudged to mums. am so full of my things i couldnt handle mum's 'superficial' chit chat. it took all my strength to not tell her to shut up and it certainly isnt mum's fault.......

hair a mess which doesnt help i got into work - ahhhh i had a dream about my boss who tried it on and i was so shocked and hurt that i left my job. awful.
simes at home cos has a nasty cough and yesterday we had the strasbourg meeting. ffs of all the kids going simes was going to share a room with a 16 yr old chin-pierced giant from his school....ma perchè??? why me? grgrgrgrg i had to ask the teachers to change him and i felt so inadequate and silly and thought to myself i simply am not strong enough to cope with all this.......

and to top this working week i not only wrote and confirmed the wrong agriturism but paula has not been in touch. weird and embarrassing.
nothing to smile about this week - i have found it hard going uphill and depressing and the w/e doesnt look any better.

jack started creche on monday - half hour i was with silv bless her - what a lass she is xxxx tues he did an hour wed an hour and a half as thurs and today two hours tho he cried today the love.

have slept badly all week and am just fed up. nothing absolutely nothing can make me smile today.