saturday....

well saturday dawned at 6 am thanks to husband's coughing and cat knocking down stuff from the ironing board as he leaped from the wardrobe onto the bed. ok i wasnt asleep anyway.
sony driving me bonkers with this side parting business hahahaha bless i got one too. am still not convinced about it but have received more compliments these last three days than i have received this last year.....
pos in bed for 48 hours with nasty cough - i just cant bring myself to be nice to him. i feel sorry for him he has noone to be with him noone who loves and cares for him. i mean that's what family is for yr parents yr siblings etc etc he has no one - i feel such a weight on my shoulders becasue of this. in fact its because of this that i havent left him....but why do i have to carry on jeopardising my happiness ???? what a fuking palaver.
i wrote to bill the start of my epilogue but had the fright of my life when i sent it as an email came back from the government where he works saying content of my email was not acceptable - shit now what??? does that mean someone has read it??? fuck fuck fuck....not that there are many secrets on it but still super personal things i have never told a soul and dont ask me why i wrote it to bill i just got carried away ( as usual silv would say ). strewth ruth hope i dont get myself or anyone in trouble!!!!
passed by mum this morning very sweet and she has romana and her mum popping in to see her. 3 gossipers and no doubt i will be the centre of their gossip.
sony has to go to arsini's house (dislike him and his parents) to finish off a project and from there go to claire's party (dislike her and her parents) at coast to coast of all fuking places ages away grrgrrggrrrrr
i have to go to termini now and look desperately for a sweatshirt and tshirt and this girl's present all for 55euro??? mah how i always find myself with never enough money beats me. i gave simes 25euro for mateo's present and mcdonalds but honest all so fucking expensive and having two youngsters with hectic social life simply working partime aint enough.
and i didnt get my blood tests done fuck
yesterday in gym i overdid it i think cos have discomfort right side under liver unless its liver.....ho hum ho hum
had slight smear yesterday weird as only 26 days ago i had my period....but no more smear yet and its almost midday...watch this space :-)))))))))))