amazing

...coincidence a month ago exactly i wrote my last blog!!!!
so much has happened we spent easter in the marche v nice trip too but jak came back unwell and twas a hard week v stressful and worrying for me and twin. i was ott with worry cos of my twin being ott with worry
mum left for bristol has found a flat ( on her second day there ) and has already bought the furniture but with no guarantee that the flat is hers......we will know on the 19th.
sony had her last school trip with her class. had mega time in capri sorrento amalfi. bought me a lemon hahahahha dont u just love it!!!!!
simes v busy full of gorgeous little ticks. i think he has a girlfriend cud be flavia. i met her couple of weeks ago. they get on v well but he insists not his girlfriend. he is submerged with homework tests and this bloomin new york thing. am a nervous wreck thinking about his new york thing. i so hope and pray it goes ahead as planned.
am bored to tears but so busy that how can i be bored.....???? i have no love life no nowt. i simply cant stand pos tho am civil and cook and clean for him. i dread any thought of intimacy cos wud have to be cruel and tell the truth. its so over my marriage i cant even cry about it :-(((((( cos its been over for ten years but the last two years have really erased any affection or regard left.
2000 i met n.1 and n.2 and for 2 months went out with them both then chose n. 2 for an affair which lasted from september til
august 2001
nov 2001 ew contacted me on friends united
july 2002 met up and started affair til
march 2004
october 2004 gw contacted me think on friends united
july 2005 met up and started affair til
march 2008
january 2009 pf contacted me on friends united
december 2009 no news from one day to the next
but it kept me going for a year i can tell u
and since december last year, almost 5 whole months nothing absolutely nothing. no attention no texts no emails just lousy poke from the odd acquaintance. nothing.........
i am still worthwhile still attractive still sexy not for long mind cos am full of aches and pains and signs of aging and there is absolutely no love in my life at all. am only 43 and a half tis really unjust. am not looking cos dont want an italian too complicated but honest a fling twice a year wouldnt hurt anyone wud it??????