strewth

twill be a bloody miracle if me, mum and sonia arrive at christchurch guest house in one piece.
am a nervous wreck have been sleeping really badly since wednesday ( ha since pos came home ) am feeling fuzzy under the weather not achey just not hundred per cent. have dry stuck feeling in throat and general malaise. twill be a miracle.
sonia started antibiotics yesterday - i told you am a nervous wreck. she aint tip top at all and once the antibiotics kick in strewth ruth....otoh if they dont kick in she wont get rid of that catarrh which causes this nasty nasty cough which makes me want to cry every time i hear it.
what a bummer life is at times
i have been in tip top condition for yonks almost two whole months now these last few days feel yukky. even my circulation gone to pots and that is simply not on with flights and five days of stress. am worried stressed hassled depressed and generally pissed off.
why oh why cant my life be more simple? more calm and tranquill. am a total nervous wreck and cant get back on track and certainly wont get back on track by monday morning 7am.........
am stopping smoking today - last fag for the time being hoping that the time being will be yonks and yonks and yonks will be after i have popped into mary major basilica to pledge an oath. i dont like my smoking probably enjoy 1 out of 5 that i smoke. i hate the subterfuge hate the smell hate the dependence hate just about everything. i managed years and years without so can do it again.
here's looking at you kid :-))))))))

hate leaving sis on her tod after she has had such a stressful week being unwell and jak unwell too. am gonna find out if she can get a certificate for staying at home still sending jak to asilo but not having to rush off left right and centre to keep things going. am sure there's a way. and am sure ferrante that arsehole of a wanker would accept one day yes one day no or maybe ten til two each day or maybe working from home. anything that can be done on home computer let sis do it. am sure am sure tis the right solution for her. i just gotta find out a few things and then worm my way into sis' head hahahahahah
am in pissawful bad mood and period due too.....ho hum ho hum :-(((((