llife oh life oh lifeeeeee

i aint happy at the moment so many reasons tho' i guess i am happy am just fed up confused dont feel well with stomach bit of cramps and period due.
dont wanna leave sony - we are far too attached for our own good but i love her to bits. she slept in my bed and we both slept badly but at a certain point her head was on my pillow and i smellt her hair and i thanked the Lord for her for simes for jack for twin for scor.
must start xanax cos cant carry on like this for sure hahahahaha
this uk business is stressing me somewhat and mum on tod in an unknown place for two weeks not 100% etc is enough to bring anyone out in a cold sweat and add to that pos whom i cfstand his v presence his everything i should see a shrink try and get over this
when he was trying to wee i cud have gagged in the clinic
how can such love and passion turn to such disgust and repulsion? tis mental for sure but i still hate and resent him so much. he is the cause of all my problems and i dont think any shrink can ever remove that conviction.
ho hum ho hum negative too negative must be more positive - i reckon its church time.....must go in and do my pledge/oath - think will choose halloween as is a significant date.....
watch this space hahahahahaha